When I finally stop procrastinating, everyone else is on VACATION!!

Janelle from Dr Damron's office called me back yesterday. Nancy Meyer the Genetics lady we worked with is on Vacation til next Monday! Since the test for DiGeorge for already born people is a fairly new test called FISH (don't ask me why) she has to find out if we have to go somewhere special to have it done. So we have to wait another week. I will keep ya posted!!

I will finally Stop putting this off!!!

I Finally made the call to set up an appointment for the tests we need done to find out if we will or will not try for another baby! I have been putting this off for... well really since Landon was diagnosed with Trisomy 22 (DiGeorge Syndrome)! I did make the call but they are out of the office until Monday!
Now it is not the test itself that makes me so nervous because I believe it is a simple Blood test. But it is the part of possibly finding out that either Harold or I have DiGeorge Syndrome and never knew it. Now the chances of that are slim, but I have met a few people over the internet who also have Children with DiGeorge and one lady and her husband just found out that he had DiGeorge. For those who don't know DiGeorge or trisomy 22 or VCFS has like 180 different symptoms, problems that can range anywhere from severe mental defects, heart defects, to not even knowing you have it. It mostly affects the Thymus Gland which controls your immune system. They tell me that in 90% of the cases it just happens, but it is that 10% that really worries me. If neither Harold or I have it, there is still a chance that it could be a defect in my eggs and that is the part they don't really want to test, they know there are some good ones because MaKenzie was a good egg (that makes me laugh now) so if they take an egg to test and it is fine then it would just be a waste of a good egg!
So I guess I will wait for their call on Monday and we will go from there! It will be the deciding factor in wheter or not we try for another little blessing!
So please throw in a little prayer for us!

Just one of those days

When I had originally started this Blog I had every intention of making it more geared toward a loss and grieving sort of Blog, for some reason I have a horrible time sharing any of that with anyone even my Husband so you haven't seen much about Landon and his story on here.
But sometimes when I am having a rough day and I have my head stuck up my own ass, I forget that I am not the only one that lost my son,.... but my Husband did to! I think this one is true in any sort of grieving situation! My Aunt Shannon found this on the internet and I am not sure who wrote it.

Daddy

It must be very difficult
To be a man in grief,
Since "men don't cry" and "men are strong"
No tears can bring relief.

It must be very difficult
To stand up to the test
And field calls and visitors
So she can get some rest.

They always ask if she's all right
And what she's going through
But seldom take his hand and ask,
"My friend, but how are you?"

He hears her crying in the night
And thinks his heart will break
And dries her tears and comforts her
But "stays strong" for her sake.

It must be very difficult
To start each day anew
And try to be so very brave ~
He lost his baby too. . .